{poetry}

Fear creates exhales

and makes absences

something to relieve

this anxiety from off my chest.

If you say goodbye,

I won't have to wonder

when the ball will drop,

when the tear will start,

when my heart will break

because it will

- at least that's what 

fear sees best,

and it's always there to say

things that never set 

my soul at rest.

I'll  say it for you

-'Goodbye' - 

so as not to waste our time

with anything less.

We both have good hearts

and so and so.

We'll leave ourselves at good intentions

because that's all we are

-there isn't time

to pass the tests

and somehow find my trust.

I let fear tell me where to hide it,

and fear always plays

through the scenarios

so you won't ever find it,

then you won't let it fall,

and I'll still be okay

through it all. 

'Solitude is safest'.

In solitary wandering 

no one says you're lost.

No one says you're lonely.

No one calls your actions out

and says that fear is the loudest,

but fear is always the loudest.

Sometimes it fakes safety

when it's imprisoned you at home.

Sometimes it creates exhales

and makes absences seem safest.

- 'I'm happier when you're gone'-

How could I be happier when you're gone?