This Sunshine Will Linger {poetry}

I think I can breathe now,

at least for today,

at least in this very moment

with you and the leaves

and the pumpkins and trees.

I feel like I can laugh,

and my laugh is as real as it's been for awhile.

The tightness inside of my chest 

has lightened its grasp.

You've ripped off the corners

of my smothering sky

to let the sunshine back in

so today I can thrive.

Maybe my darkness isn't so dark.

Maybe it's possible

to dig myself out 

and reach for bright skies

because I was happy 

with your happy,
even though we're still both

so broken inside--

You stayed up till 5,

persuading yourself

this life was worth

one more try.

Yesterday I couldn't see

how I'd ever be

truly at peace,

but here we are

just for awhile.

I'd like to imagine 

this sunshine will linger

when you go back home,

and I'm left on my own

because you've made today better,
but I don't want you to forget

that I'd even share in your misery

if you asked me to.

Please, don't be afraid to ask me to.