I like predictability and normal and schedules.  I like being able to know what I am doing, what I'm working towards, and what is going to happen throughout the day, even if that is totally unrealistic. Spur of the moment isn't something I do all that great with. Most times my immediate reaction to things is definitely 'no', but given time, my negativity usually dissipates, and sometimes, I'll even see the positive in these random, sudden changes. It just takes time. I need time.

I've also found I like to keep things low-key. I don't like to draw attention to myself. I'll be perfectly content to be in the background where no one draws attention to me. Even in my clothing style, I've found that I am drawn towards dark colors that just blend all together in harmony. You won't find me in vibrant colors all that often.

Yet, every year around my Birthday, I get this strong urge to do something drastic. To do something utterly different than the normal. Everyone expects a certain thing from  me; so I want to do something that throws them off. It's a strange feeling for someone whose middle name is 'don't draw attention to myself', and most times these feelings bring nothing to fruition because my other 3/4ths get the best of me.

But this year, this year was different. What I did wasn't huge or terribly earth-shaking, but it was something I hadn't ever seen myself doing before, and now, after almost a week, I like the results.

I got these violet/red lowlights in my hair. The cool thing (which kinda fits right up my alley) is they aren't always noticeable. In some lights, it's just too dark to really know if the light is shining differently on my hair or if the color is something else. Other lights, you most definitely know. Right after I did it, we went clothes shopping, and the dressing room had a certain kind of light which made me totally do a 'What on earth have I done?!?'

Sometimes it looks pink. Sometimes it looks more violetish. Sometimes it is the red I was going for, but I'm happy with the results. Maybe most people won't notice, but I'll know, and once in a while, the color might catch someone else's eye for a brief moment. It's fun.

I also cut thirteen inches of my hair off at the same time, but that's a totally different story...which...is taking a lot more to get used to. I might post a picture if I ever catch the right lighting.